Hi my name is Melodie...and im addicted to WOW

so i havent been updating because im addicted to playing wow. My car has been dying alot and im still stressed out. my ignition is badically dead and i need a new one. Ryan temp fixed it for me (damn mexicans and there hotwiring) ryan says he likes electrical and I admit hes good at it, he needs to go to school and turn it into a career. o well. im getting bored and tired now. im heading to bed. good night all.

someone just shoot me...

so on Sunday I was put in charge of everyone at work for 4 hours, doesn't seem that long... I mean it is just 4 hours. but I was the manager on duty and I was the only one that had a managers code and access for 90% of what had to be done. plus Kerstin is still in training so I had her calling me over every 5 minutes. during this time I had a lady come in and pick up her glasses. everything went smoothly (except the fact her mom was butting in every 2 seconds and not letting me adjust the glasses. ) she finally left and came back in an hour. she had a flaw in the lens, it was a small dimple from the coating. I offered to remake her lenses and she was leaving back home to Seattle. she wanted a refund. so I said fine she could have a refund. so i refund the whole amount except the amount for a lens cleaning kit (6.99) it says on the computer that i cant refund the transaction without refunding the full amount, I cant refund the full amount without the lens cleaning kit. so she has the lens cleaning kit down packed in her suitcase. i call Mel and she is in the shower, so i call Becky and she says i cant spoil it we have to have the kit. so I tell the customer this and she flips out. she says she wants her refund and a manager, i let her know I'm the manager. i explain the situation and her mom starts flipping out on me. she finally goes down and gets it and her mom stays up stairs with me and is yelling how riverside vision gives scratch proof coating and one year warranties for free and i should have given her the kit for free and i tell her she should have gone to riverside if she loves it so much. she says that i don't know anything about optical and she knows mores since shes been wearing glasses longer than I have been alive. at that point I'm pissed at her and i tell her i don't have to speak with her because shes not my customer and she has not bought a single item from us. she says I'm making a scene. i tell her no mam your making a scene and walk into the lab yelling good day mam, good day mam! shes stalking me into the lab at that point. finally Mel calls when I'm in the lab and i explain whats happening. she says spoil out the kit or let her keep it and make her pay 6.99 for it(yeah fat chance that's happening). as I'm about to leave the lab her mom is banging on the door and I'm shaking at this point. I want to hit this lady. so i head outside and say nothing to the mom but see the daughter there. she gives me the kit and I refund her the money, i explain I would have been happy to fix the lens and her insurance we billed will have to be notified to so she can have her benefits back. (its gonna take 6 weeks ha ha bitch) so fast forward to today...
the mother called Mel today and said don't believe your employee, believe me. that bitch, she said she got a witnesses phone number and blah. that's OK, i got my own witness statement today and he said i should have called security on her. she also said i picked on her because shes disabled. she says she has problems walking.. she walked pretty good stalking me all the way to the lab. so today at work Mel asks me to go to muchos gracias for lunch for everyone. so i do and on my way back i start balling uncontrollably. i miss my mom, i have some lady saying I attacked her when it was the other way around, and we are financially not doing so well. i am so stressed out. I'm crying so much i fill my sunglasses. i get there wipe my face off and get inside to work.
Travis sees I'm upset and gives me a hug ( i love my Travis) i feel kinda better, but I'm still stressed out. its gonna take a while to get out of this hole.

the economy sucks

So today I got paid and i was disappointed. they took out 12.00 in my check from having negative commission. that's a little fucked up if you ask me. its not my fault my customers wanted different frames and one refunded because she could see fine out of her old glasses and didn't want to spend the money on new ones. she'll be back in a few years with fucked up vision because she didn't want to use her new prescription and waste the money. what a bitch. my check was 100.00 less than i thought so after bills i have no money left. I have to choose between my car insurance (which is the only reason I'm keeping my license) and my phone bill. plus I have my ticket to pay off. I hate being stressed. I need some help. I think im going to get a job at harry and davids to help out, since I got my hours dropped from 38 to 20. o well, better go get to looking. night all

Today

so today was pretty boring. Bubba was really a good kid today. I took him to the bus stop and met Kris his dad there and they went to his house. I have to pick him up Saturday night, all the way in white city. its really irritating having to drive that far. Kris needs to get his license back and get a car. I bought him groceries too, I have food stamps and he doesn't and he doesn't make much money. I just got him some of the basics (milk, bread, juice, fruit) . me and Ryan went to food for less because I left behind 16.00 worth of meat. the pack I had included a roast, steaks and stew meat. it was gone so i got 16.00 worth of meat and they said that was cool. we saw Katie there and doo. she was buying B food. well I'm heading to bed I have a meeting for Doo tomorrow. I have to be there to make sure Katie doesn't sugar coat it and turn her into an angel and us to asses (when its the other way around)

My thoughts

so my kids were driving me up the wall today... doing there usual fighting. one thing about Doo does that drives me crazy is he bites, and I'm not talking about a little nibble I'm talking about leaving marks on Kristian's arm. he leaves bruises and cuts in the shape of teeth. and every time he does it I want to slap him as hard as I can across his little face. today he drew blood on Kristian, and its never 1 bite mark its 3-6 bite marks. I can control my anger around him because I know its not his fault, its Katie's. if she would just socialize him and put him in daycare with other kids every once in a while he would know better. Kristian has never bit anyone.
today we had Doo all day, we took both kids to the park and to the discovery kids place. they had fun for the most part I think.
last night the kids were taking a bath and Kristian said he had to go potty and pointed to the potty. so I put him on it and he didn't do anything, I did this again 2 more times, the 3rd time he sat on there a whole lot longer and he actually went pee. it was the first time he went all by himself. i was so proud.
Piney lately has been letting Katie get away with a whole lot. I understand that it is his baby mama, but he needs to go get custody so she doesn't hold it over his head and try to take off with him every time something doesn't go her way. she has been taking all the money from collecting on the arcade machines and not giving him his half, and because she screwed us over on the rent for the month of September, were now behind on all of our bills. were struggling because she is too lazy to get a job. she says Piney owed her the money, here's the deal: we borrowed that money from Piney's mom to pay to her. I borrowed half and Piney borrowed half. that means that even if Piney did owe her the money(which he didn't) she still owes my my half. I want my money !!! I'm tried of struggling, i want to be back on track in supporting my family and my son. I don't get child support. I am not afraid to take her to court. I think she needs to grow up and stop acting like a child. plus, all the men she brings into her life is screwing up Doo's mental being. I came from a mother that neglected me for men and drugs and guess what, the way Katie is starting to live her life and raise Doo is the way my mom started. my mom lost me to the state twice before she lost me and my brothers and sisters completely. we were in foster care for 2 years before my adopted mom and dad kept us. enough for tonight.

So what do i do?

Wrote this my freshman year for a guy. it started out a song, but I have never been able to put music to it. I hope it brings enlightenment. If you use these ANYWHERE ask for my permission.
So What do I do?
Time and time again,
I think of you,
And time and time again,
I dream of you,
And time and time again my love is true.
So what do I do?
*******
I think of you always and forever,
But boy your just so clever,
You played me for the fool that I am.
So what do I do?
*******
You told me that you loved me,
I thought I was taken on this ride for free,
But I ended up paying with heartache.
So what do I do?
*******
My friends all told me we were meant to be,
And I know now you don't love me.
So what do I do?
*******
Memories that we have shared,
Days of old when I had cared,
And I will never forget you boy.
So what do I do?
*******
Love is such a precious thing,
I'm not a puppet on a string,
And all girls have feelings too.
So what do I do?
*******
But in my heart you'll always stay,
And you will love me someday,
But I will love somebody new.
So what do I do?
*******
So now I'll love my new baby so,
So in the past you have got to go,
Because im no longer your silly hoe.
So what do I do?
*******
So now I have to say goodbye,
Because with my man I have to fly,
And I know now just what to do,
I have to get my sorry ass over you!
And thats what i'll do...

Enough

Enough By Melodie Schultz
(if you use these ANYWHERE ask for my permission)
I've had enough of secrets,
I've had enough of lies,
I've had enough of dismissive remarks,
Enough to make me cry.
*******
You promised me a garden,
You promised me a dream,
You promised me a lifetime of happiness it seems,
Promises of our future truly too good to believe,
*******
I believed your promises,
I believed your lies,
I believed there was no doubt there was happiness where our paths lie.
Believing is for fools whose young hearts soon die.
*******
Promise me you will leave me,
Promise me you will make me cry,
Promise me a lifetime of hate and dread until the ground I lie.
I will walk away without a tear, just one lonely sigh.